Seize the Moment!

That was the phrase of today..."Seize the Moment"!!!  Granted, it was used in context of our show...and really seizing the moments that we are on stage...which btw, really helped my performance tonight...but it got me thinking...

We really need to seize every moment of our lives and live them to the fullest.  Yeah, we get tired...yeah, we get bruised...yeah, trials await us, but I don't wanna look back on my life an have regrets, or realize that I missed amazing opportunities to live and to grow. 

So I challenge you now, whoever you are, reading this...Seize every moment in your life...and live it to the fullest!  I know I am going to try to!  :)  

Me singing the National Anthem at the Rodeo!

Here you go!  Enjoy!  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9APxRs2a9UA

Pics from Grease

Here are some pics from intermission yesterday...love the hair...right?!?!  HAHA

Me and Mallory...our WONDERFUL Pattie Simcox

Me and Meg...she's my Cha Cha and also my coworker for Playtime

The beautiful Savannah (Rizzo) and I

The incomperable Ben Medina (Sonny)

Yup.  It takes me like 20-30 minutes to do my hair...

Hope you enjoyed!

Oh Dear!

So, today has been a day of "Oh Dear's".  First of all, our kids in the workshop this week...well...let's just say they have A LOT of energy.  :)  Then, tonight for the show, I was fifteen minutes late to call, because I didn't wake up from my nap!  Then I got some notes before the show and they kinda threw me off the whole show, and it just wasn't my best.  :(

THEN...this is great...in the first act, during the park scene, I have a little confrontation with Sandy where she gets mad and storms off, and I am left to awkwardly approach everyone onstage who witnessed it and play it off cool.  So normally, we have bout 5 seconds of awkward silence before I play it off and say, "Wierd Chick!"  But instead, we had about three seconds of awkward silence, and the music for "We Go Together" came on.  Well, we thought the sound guy would fix his mistake and just stop the track...so we stood there VERY awkwardly for the first stanza of the intro.  Well, he didn't turn it off...so I yelled out "WIERD CHICK" over the music to everyone could react to it...and then we did the number!  OH MY AWKWARD!!! HAHAHAHA  We could not believe it was actually happening.  We were all laughing so hard in disbelief for the first two verses til about the bridge.  So we skipped about the last 5 minutes of Act I and just did that song.  HAHA

Then I just got a message from one of the mom's who put their child into the workshop.  Well, she thinks that the workshop is a little bit too much for him (he's turning 7 soon...so she took a chance putting him in).  So that leaves us (after having already lost about 3 of the kids orginally enrolled for the week) a whopping total of........*drumroll*......THREE KIDS!!  Yup.  Three girls...2 nine year-olds and one 11 year-old.  So now I have to not do Treasure Island, and I am concocting some sort of Little Girls of Broadway review.  OH DEAR!  

Wish me luck....

Today was the Day...

WOW!!  Today was definitely a day from...well...not from a good place to say the least!  It started out just being a really long day.  We put up our kid's workshop version of A Chorus Line today.  It actually turned out pretty well.  But getting it to that point was a bit...well...stressful would be an understatement.  I ended up having to do some revisions to the script and songs an hour before the show.  That was not fun.  Also, the dollar store lied to us and said they had top hats...they didn't.  So we had to scrounge what hats the theater had...including a few cowboy hats!  haha  Those were just a few of the stresses of that show.  But overall the kids did a great job and it turned out well. 

Meg and I with the Kids

The kids from A Chorus Line

Then we started our new week or workshops...Treasure Island.  We orginally had like 7 kids signed up, which is an ok amount, but now we are down for four randomly  :(  No fun.  And it seems like it is going to take them a while to learn things, 'cause they're a bit younger.  But hopefully that turns out.  I just editing our script for that...it was too long with too many characters.  So I made it work.  

Then I finally got to take a short nap, then I did the shoot out and the show.  It just made for a long day.  Not to mention that for some reason, people think that they can be rude and walk all over everyone and treat them like crap.  I don't know...there were just many instances all day where things didn't happen as planned, and Meg and I were YELLED at for them.  There was no polite talking to, no solution finding...just yelling.  It was really annoying.  

And I miss my friends.  I feel so disconnected and distant from them.  And I hate how it feels.  I feel like I've lost them.  So if you're reading this, please...let's not lose our friendship, k?

Snow King

So, I wasn't liking myself or my life.  So I decided to change some things.  I made some good goals, and so far so good.  One of my goals is to work out after the kid's workshop.  So today, I hiked Snow King mountain, and got a great bagel sandwich at Pearl Street Bagel.  So here are some pics!  

That is the Snow King Mountain!!!!

The fields were full of very pretty wildflowers! 

The view from the top!

Jackson's Hole from the top

Yup...I did it with my shirt off...I'm not the modest little

boy I used to be mom...HAHA

So yes.  A fun day.  After snow mountain, I floated down a somewhat lazy river in an innertube.  The creek runs next to our apartments.  I went with Meg and Bronwyn and some of the kids from the single's ward.  It was way fun. BUT (pun intended) I hit my butt on a rock...and I cut it pretty bad...I would upload a pic of it...but its my butt.  HAHA  

Yay for Sunday

I love Sunday's.  They are just really great opportunities to reflect, meditate, and start over.  I am also very grateful for understanding friends who are always there to support me.  You know who you are.  So thanks!  And ps...the music to the youth broadcast A Brand New Year that the Church put out a while back is amazing.  So inspirational.  If you ever need a pick me up, that is the music to listen to!  

Oh, and by the way, I am now officially addicted Alias.  HAHAHA  I finished season one, and I loved it.  And now I am going to start season two.  If you didn't watch it when it was on TV, I really recommend that you start watching it online.  NOW!  

In other news, things have been just weird around here.  like vibe and energy wise.  I feel like the entire world is against me.  Maybe I'm just being self-absorbed or oversensitive, but that is how I have felt recently.  But I have also been trying to focus on others, and just loving them.  The show we are doing with our kids this week has really inspired me to focus on others and love them.  The message of the song What I Did For Love has really impacted how I am trying to live my life right now.  If you don't know the show or the song, I highly recommend that you get familiar with it.  :) 

So, this is really getting...

Don't you hate it when you have a job, and your coworker does half as much as you do, and they get paid the same?  That is kinda how I am feeling.  I feel like she never prepares, etc.  I spend at least three nights a week staying up til 4 am or taking my afternoons to prepare scripts, music, or curriculum for our week, and all I expect is that she does SOMETHING in her own time to prepare...

 Like for example, this week we are working on A Chorus Line in our kid's workshop.  Because Meg is in charge of dance, I leave her free reign and I try to give her a lot of dances to do so that she feels like she is doing something.  But it is frustrating because she doesn't take time to research the show she is choreographing.  Instead, she just uses YouTube videos of the originals and copies the dances.  The worst part though, is that she doesn't even take the time before had to become familiar with the dances...she watches them and teaches them ON THE SPOT!  It is SO unprofessional.  

Anyways, just needed to vent that.  

Life is fun

So, things are going well here in Jackson!  I have been playing Danny now for about a week...It is going pretty well!  I feel much more relaxed into the role.  Jason Celaya (international pop star sensation...HAHA), our choreographer, came back to watch the show and he was very pleased with what I was doing!  He gave me some great notes that I have since implemented and things seem to be going well.  

This last week was really hard though.  There was too much drama happening behind the scenes...and I feel so disconnected sometime from everyone, from my family, and God.  So I have made the goal to get over myself and reconnect with those things.  

Our kids show last week went well.  I didn't much like the script and score to Sleeping Beauty (the show we performed), but the kids liked it and they did well.  This week we started A Chorus Line...and it is SO fun!  I LOVE that show!  Absolutely AMAZING!  It really inspired me today...it got me thinking about how lucky I am to have my body, to have the talents I have, and how I need to do everything in my life out of LOVE.  That is the answer folks.  Love.  

Anywho, life is sure fun sometimes, but you just have to keep on keepin' on.  ps...check this out...it is pretty neat!  http://the26project.org

Alias...

So, I started watching Alias the other day...from season 1 and now I am hooked.  HAHA  At least it gives me something to keep my mind occupied with.  

So, today is Monday.  I did the whole kids workshop this morning by myself.  It actually went much better than I thought.  But my voice is really tired.  I tried to use good technique as I projected, but alas, it still made my voice a little tired.  And tonight, the Single's Ward is coming to see our show for FHE!  And Jason Celaya, our Choreographer, is also coming tonight.  So I want to be good!  Ugh....wish me luck.  

Besides that, things are going well here.  There has been A LOT of drama here.  It just stinks.  It wares on you as time goes on.  And it just got back from a weekend trip to Utah.  HAHA 

SO much better!

Just wanted to update ya'll...tonight was SO much better than last night.  I really feel like i am relaxing into the role.  So yeah, that's all.  :)

So...Danny Zuko's Gay...? Wait, WHAT?!?!

So, its been two days now of me being Danny.  Last night was Fabulous!  It went really really well, and I felt like I gave my all.  Overall, it was a great show.  The cast was super supportive and the audience was really receptive.  

But tonight was a little bit rough.  Overall the show was ok...but I just wasn't connected very well to the part.  I felt like the Hand Jive dance went really well, and so did Alone at the Drive In Movie, but the end of the show was a DISASTER.  First of all, during You're the One That I Want, during my verse I accidently sang, "You'd better shape up!  Cause I need a man...." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA  Oops!  So evidently Sandy wasn't the only one who had a "coming out"  during the show.  HAHA  And then I went down the stairs too fast and ended up tripping Sandy...overall, no fun.  

It will just get better I hope.  I'm kinda down right now about that and some other things...so I think I am just going to go to bed and never wake up...  :)

Ugh.

This process is so hard.  But so worth it I guess in the long run.  I am just getting so frustrated.  I need more patience with myself.  And I definitely need to stop hating myself right now...haha

Summer Lovin'

Well...here it is folks.  I start playing Danny Zuko in Grease at the Jackson Hole Playhouse starting Wednesday.  I had my FIRST rehearsal for it tonight.  Act One.  It went relatively well.  I really really REALLY need to work on being more grounded and "cool", and some other minor things.  The hardest part for me is NOT to look like a dancer.  So this will be a great learning experience for me.

The other hard thing for me is that I feel like the Director wants me to be Brock.  And I am not Brock.  I feel like the Danny that I am going to play is different from Brock's interpretation.  But alas, she is the director, and I must take the direction and make the connection.  So wish me luck!  

Happy Fourth of July!

So today was fun.  We were in the Jackson Hole parade.  We all got in our costumes (me in my Teen Angel costume, a white tux  :)  )  And we rode in vintage Cadillac cars (that picture is of the car I rode in, except we had the top down!)!  So much fun.  We also had our music there, so as we got into town we were all out of the cars dancing in the streets!  The people LOVED us!  It was definitely fun.  PS....Dick Cheney like lives here...so he was at the parade...random.

Then we had a shortened kids workshop...once again, my coworker was NOT prepared..so I ended up stepping in and finishing some of the choreography.  :(  Then I took a short nap and we had an early show.  It went really well I felt.  After the show we all changed, and watched the fireworks from the roof of the playhouse!  It was so beautiful to see the mountains light up with the fireworks.  Definitely nice.  Then we cranked up the jukebox and had a sock-hop in the lobby of the theater with good ol' fried chicken, ribs, shredded BBQ pork sandwiches, potato salad, and of course red velvet cake!  

So, overall, a great fourth of July.  I wish I could have spent it with friends but oh well.  What can ya do? 

Why do I do this to myself?

I am being so Negative Nancy today.  I think it might be a combo of many things, including the fact that I have gone to bed at 5 am the last two days, frustration with coworkers (see last post), people being disrespectful, especially when its directed toward me, my sunburn, the family reunion I am missing, and the fact that I have no friends here and all my friends are having a great time together in Provo, among other things.  

I hate feeling like this.  Something needs to change.  And it has to be me.  What I am going to change...I don't know.  But whatever it is, I need to figure it out, and fast.  

C'mon now!

Ok, really?  This is really getting...

Two nights in a row, I bust my butt til 5 am to be prepared for this.  I have slept a total of 6 hours in the last 60 hours of my life because I have been pulling the weight of this.  I give up my afternoons to do more publicity.  

And YOU have the AUDACITY to come in today UNPREPARED when you have known what you needed to get done, and you blame it on the video that wouldn't load?  Honestly.  Really?  

PULL YOUR WEIGHT!

Rant done.  :)

Sunny Days...

So, lucky for Meg and I, we actually got three more kids signed up for our theater workshop this week...making 6 kids!!  We are also going to have some of our cast mates participate so that we can fill the roles and give the kids the opportunity to work with "professional" actors.  It should work out great! 

We also got to sit down with our boss and get all the info we needed out of her.  We got tons of names, places, things to do, and even a radio interview and newspaper ads out of her to help us advertise for our workshops to bring more people in!  It just feels good to have some direction in our efforts now.  

I got to sit out on the roof of the Playhouse today for about an hour and a half....just basking in the sun and beauty of jackson.  I may or may not have gotten a bit red...HAHA  but that usually turns to tan in a day or so...I LOVE MY SKIN!  

So, things are looking up!  Thank goodness I'm alive!