Ugh.

This process is so hard.  But so worth it I guess in the long run.  I am just getting so frustrated.  I need more patience with myself.  And I definitely need to stop hating myself right now...haha

Summer Lovin'

Well...here it is folks.  I start playing Danny Zuko in Grease at the Jackson Hole Playhouse starting Wednesday.  I had my FIRST rehearsal for it tonight.  Act One.  It went relatively well.  I really really REALLY need to work on being more grounded and "cool", and some other minor things.  The hardest part for me is NOT to look like a dancer.  So this will be a great learning experience for me.

The other hard thing for me is that I feel like the Director wants me to be Brock.  And I am not Brock.  I feel like the Danny that I am going to play is different from Brock's interpretation.  But alas, she is the director, and I must take the direction and make the connection.  So wish me luck!  

Happy Fourth of July!

So today was fun.  We were in the Jackson Hole parade.  We all got in our costumes (me in my Teen Angel costume, a white tux  :)  )  And we rode in vintage Cadillac cars (that picture is of the car I rode in, except we had the top down!)!  So much fun.  We also had our music there, so as we got into town we were all out of the cars dancing in the streets!  The people LOVED us!  It was definitely fun.  PS....Dick Cheney like lives here...so he was at the parade...random.

Then we had a shortened kids workshop...once again, my coworker was NOT prepared..so I ended up stepping in and finishing some of the choreography.  :(  Then I took a short nap and we had an early show.  It went really well I felt.  After the show we all changed, and watched the fireworks from the roof of the playhouse!  It was so beautiful to see the mountains light up with the fireworks.  Definitely nice.  Then we cranked up the jukebox and had a sock-hop in the lobby of the theater with good ol' fried chicken, ribs, shredded BBQ pork sandwiches, potato salad, and of course red velvet cake!  

So, overall, a great fourth of July.  I wish I could have spent it with friends but oh well.  What can ya do? 

Why do I do this to myself?

I am being so Negative Nancy today.  I think it might be a combo of many things, including the fact that I have gone to bed at 5 am the last two days, frustration with coworkers (see last post), people being disrespectful, especially when its directed toward me, my sunburn, the family reunion I am missing, and the fact that I have no friends here and all my friends are having a great time together in Provo, among other things.  

I hate feeling like this.  Something needs to change.  And it has to be me.  What I am going to change...I don't know.  But whatever it is, I need to figure it out, and fast.  

C'mon now!

Ok, really?  This is really getting...

Two nights in a row, I bust my butt til 5 am to be prepared for this.  I have slept a total of 6 hours in the last 60 hours of my life because I have been pulling the weight of this.  I give up my afternoons to do more publicity.  

And YOU have the AUDACITY to come in today UNPREPARED when you have known what you needed to get done, and you blame it on the video that wouldn't load?  Honestly.  Really?  

PULL YOUR WEIGHT!

Rant done.  :)

Sunny Days...

So, lucky for Meg and I, we actually got three more kids signed up for our theater workshop this week...making 6 kids!!  We are also going to have some of our cast mates participate so that we can fill the roles and give the kids the opportunity to work with "professional" actors.  It should work out great! 

We also got to sit down with our boss and get all the info we needed out of her.  We got tons of names, places, things to do, and even a radio interview and newspaper ads out of her to help us advertise for our workshops to bring more people in!  It just feels good to have some direction in our efforts now.  

I got to sit out on the roof of the Playhouse today for about an hour and a half....just basking in the sun and beauty of jackson.  I may or may not have gotten a bit red...HAHA  but that usually turns to tan in a day or so...I LOVE MY SKIN!  

So, things are looking up!  Thank goodness I'm alive!

This is really getting...

So, I have decided to stop complaining out loud to people because it gets really old after a while.  And instead I can vent on my blog!  haha  And people will actually WANT to read about it.  

So first, a quick update.  I finished my semester at BYU and got really good grades!  Unfortunately I also got mono and had to withdraw from a few classes.  But luckily I got better in time for Young Ambassador Tour.  YA tour was AMAZING!  I got to spend four wonderful weeks in Denmark, Norway, Sweden, and Finland performing, serving, and sightseeing.  It was an unforgettable experience!  If you want to see some photos feel free to go onto my facebook page and check them out!  Scandinavia is SO beautiful!  The people are beautiful and very friendly!  Surprisingly enough most of the people there speak English...so the Language barrier wasn't very prevalent.  Also,  we were so high north (at one point only 200 km from the Arctic Circle!) that it was ALWAYS light!  Like we would get out of shows and it would just be light outside, as if it were four in the afternoon.  So wierd.  HAHA  But overall I came closer to the Saviour as I testified of him in firesides and represented him and BYU in those four wonderful countries.  

NOW....I am in Jackson Hole, WY performing in Grease at the Jackson Hole Playhouse!  Its a fun show!  Come See It!  www.jhplahouse.com  for more info.  Anyways, the show itself is great...but it is the organization and management that have been driving me BONKERS!  Don't get me wrong...i LOVE everyone here...but things just need to run differently if they want to become better and really "Aim for the Heart" as the motto says this year.  

The main thing I a frustrated with right now is that I run the Summer Musical Theater workshops for kids.  Coming into this experience I thought that it would be like other workshops I have worked for...the Theater advertises and gets people to come and I do the work during the workshop.  Little did I know that I would be singlehandedly be handling ALL the aspects of the workshops...recruiting, advertising, etc.  It is NUTS!  First of all...I FEEL that that the price is WAY too much...I feel like I could get MUCH more participants at a lower price and make more money than have a few participants and make less money.  Second, this is my FIRST time doing ANYTHING like this...I have NO idea what I am doing and neither the theater or those who have done it in the past seem to help me AT ALL!  I know no one here...so I have no idea how to network or get around the word of mouth (which is the ONLY suggestion I have gotten from the theater of how to advertise).  I don't think I have a budget to advertise, and if I do, I have NO idea how much it is...though I doubt it is anything substantial.  So here I am in my living room.  I have called this list that they did give me off the top of their heads of people who have participated in the past TWO TIMES now...nothing.  And our second week of workshops starts tomorrow...I have THREE people signed up.  I can't do Hairspray with three people...I can do a DAMN good workshop and teach them about music, dancing, and acting, but I can't Follow through with what I promised to do.  And I feel like I have done ALL in my power to recruit.  So, we leave it up to fate.  I just talked to my co worker Meg, and we are going to express our concerns in a very professional and assertive way to our boss tomorrow and see what happens.  

Wish us luck!

Until next time!