California Music Circus Auditions

So, this weekend has been OH so fun!! Me, Clarissa, and Melissa all road tripped out to sunny Sacramento California this weekend to not only visit our dear Ivan, who almost DIED from a random kidney disease, but to audition for the California Music Circus! Geoff and Jenny came in their own car...hmmmm.

So, we had lots of fun riding out here in the car...we sang, talked, told embarrassing stories and i drank more than 5 liters of water. that resulted in ALOT of unwanted stops to use the restroom...he he.

When we got to Sacramento, the Hoffman Family greeted us with warm welcomes. when geoff and jenny finally got here we had a wonderful yummy dinner (prepared by mama hoffman herself...) and then we set off for Kinkos to print off headshots and copy music. that stressed me out. lol

anyways, we all got in bed, and today, we went to the auditions at 9 am. we signed in, warmed up and were informed we would be learning a ballet combo....oh crap i thought...but it turned out well. out of the 145 dancers, all 5 of us made the first cut...they cut it in half...kinda...like 70 were left. THEN we learned a crazy fun combo from Hairspray, followed by another cut. unfortunately, Melissa and Clarissa were cut, but Jenny and Geoff and I made it. then we went to a yummy lunch at the Bread Factory, and after lunch we did both dances again, we all sang, and Geoff and I read for a part in My Fair Lady. I sang All I Need is the Girl. i thought i did fantastic...not being proud, but i was proud of my audition today!

well, it is off to bed...we have a full day of driving tomorrow! GO US!!

Decisions

You know, sometimes I hate making decisions. It is so hard to decide sometimes between the red shirt of the blue, the water or the soda, sourdough or white, what one knows to be true and what one feels in their heart...I hate making decisions.

In happier news, tonight was the Panama Party! It was a blast to see lots of old mission friends and catch up and reminisce. I also loved the patacones and the cornflake milkshakes and the potato salad...yummy!!!

Random

So, I don't really know why I am updating this right now. I think I am just procrastinating doing homework. So, Emily got home off of her mission in Taiwan. I got to go to Cali for the weekend to visit with the fam and see her. It was fun. The only bad thing was that it rained all weekend! I was really looking forward to some nice California weather. Oh well. Utah is making up for that right now. It is like 50 degrees outside and SUNNY!!! Absolutely gorgeous!

So, I am kinda tired right now. I have gotten a grand total of 10 hours of sleep since Sunday. It's my own fault though...sometimes I just can't help myself. OH, and in Jazz we did our testing for our combination...it was a super fast combo and it was pretty hard, but i got a 28 out of 30! yay! And Tuesday and today we tested our across-the-floor stuff, and I felt like i did really well. For example, I pulled my hamstring on Monday, yet on Tuesday i was able to kick as high as ever. Plus I hit solid double turns. And today I was able to do a great side leap and really sit into my turnout. I was proud! yay for me.

well, enough about me. I need to do homework.

seriuosly.

i'm going

now

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Taking Control

So, lets face it folks, these last two weeks have been HELL!! I have been to Hell and Back...and NOW is the time to take control. I am going to let go and start new goals and just get on track. It feels so good to be in control of my life! I won't let it out of my control again!

So, I finished the American Mall. That was yet again an utter fiasco. We also performed the MDT showcase! It was a blast! The show was amazing! Unfortunately I didn't do much, but I had fun anyway. Jenny Jordan Frogley was the guest star. I was in the Opener (Once Upon a Time from Brooklyn) and the closer (Its Your Wedding Day from The Wedding Singer), and I came out as the preacher in Not Getting Married Today from Company. My parents came, my uncle Curt and aunt Kathy came, Sis. Ampuero and Adriana came, Paul came, Teancum and Seth (my room mates) came, and the biggest suprise of all, PRESIDENT and SISTER DUFFIN came!!! He was my mission president. The best part was in the show when all of those dear people came, during the first part of the closer, I bent down to pick up my partner and my jeans RIPPED so bad! like seriously from the top of my butt almost down to my knee! HA HA HA lol luckily I had ballet tights on underneath, or everyone would've have a wonderful show of my dance belt! GROSS!!

Point being people, I AM IN CONTROL AND SO MUCH BETTER!!!!

The American Mall

So, I am in a movie! YAY!!! It is called the American Mall. I am a dancer. It is going to be like a "High School Musical" - esqe type musical movei that is being produced by MTV and will air...well, I don't know when. So far it is going good. The first day that the dancers filmed was absolute HELL!!! Seriously, we got at the Mall at like 9 am, and we did a lot of sitting. I realized I am not a Film person...definitely an instant gratification theatre person.


But anyways, so we were there til 1:30 am...it was ridiculous. And not only that but the crew treated us like crap. There was this lady that we nicknamed "Ms. Coyote" who would not stop Shushing us even though there was nothing going on. Yeah, we understood that when they are rehearsing or filming that we have to be silent, but they were just changing lights or something, and she would SHUSH us!!! And very rudely too! Plus they like wouldn't just send us back to the waiting area to wait, but we would wait ON SET for hours without doing ANYTHING!!! It was annoying. It wasn't very organized that day, and there were many other things, but it was just crazy. The other days haven't been as bad. Luckily. I think it is cause "Ms. Coyote" is gone. lol anyways, we finish it this Sunday and Monday. So, yeah...look for me! I am dressed as a Ben and Jerry's Employee in a Tye-dye apron...so it is easy to spot me!

School

Well, it has now been about, oh, Two weeks of school, and things are going well. I love my schedule, I love my classes, and i am doing good in all of them, yes, even American Heritage!

I love my Jazz class. My teacher is Jenny Giaque (said "Juke") and she was a former Cougerette. The class is killer, but I LOVE it! Also, my acting teacher, Laurie, is so amazing! We have such a great time in class, and she has really taught us not only acting things, but she has helped us boost our own self confidence.

Hence my new attitude on life...I am keeping it positive! Whenever I get down on myself I just change that thought around to a positive thought. For example in Jazz class there are many things that are very very hard to do, but I just say to myself(and sometimes outloud) "Dude, I can so do this. I will be great!" And when i screw up miserably, I just laugh at myself, pick myself up and start over and try harder, really focusing on getting better and not putting myself down. You should try it sometime! It really helps!

Well, I am here...freezing and trying just to fit in. That I think is the hardest part. But it will get easier.

My new Dorm

So, for those of you who actually read this thing...which I think is very very few...i am now almost moved into my new dorm at BYU....I am living in The Colony...i like my apt., but I am not a huge fan of the room I am living in. Yeah, either it is too small or i brought too much stuff! lol

So, yeah, I guess it will have to do. I have only met one apartment-mate...his name is Teancum...cool right? he is nice enough...but it seems like it is everyone for himself in this apt.

oh well, i just can't wait to get busy with school and to make friends so that i am not so alone here. that is how i feel. a bit alone.